http://aang-aint-white.livejournal.com/1007.html

after reading that article, i somewhat agree but i also don't fully accept it. they claim that it's solely asian influences but that's not the case. you have a whole breed of what we see in our daily lives and people feed off of our stereotypes.

i think aang was well suited but this is how american movies often go into marketing. white people tend to dominate the silver screen and leave hispanics and asians in the muddled area of background characters. the only time asians get a lead role is only in kung fuu movies and hispanics get their highlit from.. well, not much. sure, we get our own month and even a few sidekick roles in tv shows, but where are we really mentioned? i have yet to see a box office hit that doesn't involve a person of hispanic blood as the main character. and no, SELENA DOESN'T FUCKING COUNT. that shit movie makes me want to cringe everytime i see it! i just don't understand as to why we can't let everyone get their turn. everyone needs a time to shine and do justice for their own race every once in a while.

i can't get to sleep, so i'm writing to you all.

i'm in pain right now so it makes sleeping a task, especially when i have school tomorrow at 9:30. i'm thinking of maybe trying to bore myself into a dream, but i doubt it. apparently, the pill i took earlier in the day is keeping me wired.

i've been drawing a lot more, and i'm pretty excited and let down by it all at the same time.

before i forget, i had a weird dream involving me buying 3 pies and eating them all. one thing that's odd is that i hate pie.

i'm growing my nails out. ._.

i'm learning japanese again so i can head to japan in the next 1-2 years with some basic knowledge.

i need to convince someone to come with me... it's times like this that i'm annoyed that i don't have a boyfriend to take with me. speaking of boyfriends, my good pal is convinced that i'll meet my "dream" guy there. who knows? i doubt it ._. asians like them thin.

i haven't told one of my friends about my plan of living in japan... i'm not sure i even will.

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
~~i'm a lonely being.

What's one of the stupidest things you've done?
~~driving over a football field with my friend to country music... and then getting caught/damaging the front of my car.

What kind of magazines do you read? What news sites do you read?
~~i sadly don''t even read magazines anymore. i just tend to scope the net looking for news on various sites that have it on the top headline news.

If you could see one band in concert right now, any band, dead or alive, which would it be?
~~frou frou. AWWWWWWWWWWYEAH. hell, i would love to see her or even blur. BLURRRRRR.

What's really disgusting?
~~girls who go commando in really tight pants. sure, it's a turn on for some, but i like leaving a little bit of imagination to play with.

Name one odd item within five feet of you.
~~i have action figures of pokemon and stuffed animals next to my bed. also, a cube figure of kamina, simon, and their lagaan. OH I AM SUCH A NERD.

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
DEXTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. DEXTER DEXTER DEXTER. and the new season of house! AMAZING!

Where would you like to go right now if you had enough money?
~~japan! or maybe even india! yeah, that seems neat! i would like to go to england too. or maybe australia! i'm too picky. :/

What are you most excited for?
~~learning japanese again so i can be prepared for when i go to japan to live there in the next 1-2 years. i'm really excited!

What websites do you always visit when you go online? What's your favorite place to visit?
~~several favourite artists blogs, gaiaonline, newgrounds, google, adultswim, peopleofwalmart.. i have more.

What was the last thing you bought?
~~dexter season 2 and 3 flavours of ice cream.

What's your favorite season?
~~winter for the most part. even in autumn, it's always hot in florida, it's the worst! i love cold weather a lot.. and christmas. i like the good feeling around it.

Does the weather affect your mood?
~~colder weather brings me more pain physically, but it lifts my mood a lot. hotter weather makes me overheat easily and i get sick.

What is your zodiac sign?
~~taurus and horse. is it just me, or is it odd how they almost match?

What new skill do you want to learn right now?
~~i want to learn a new language for the most part.

5 things (not people) you can't live without?
~~my laptop, tablet, tv, books/comics, mango juice from this asian store.

Do you have any siblings?
~~i have 2 brothers... why doesn't the older one leave home? he's pushing 30 and it's looking odder with every passing day.

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
CUDDLE ME RAW, BABY.

What subject in school did you remember the easiest?
~~ i am guessing you mean which one i thought was the easiest? well, it has to be p.e. you know, the one where you actually needed to read the books to study it? yeah, that one.

Write out the names of your characters and explain
1) how you thought of their name
2) what made you create the character in the first place
3) how the character has changed over time (if they have changed)
4) any random fun fact about that character

A.) Nohlan: I got his name somewhere from tv I think. I just remembered thinking about how nice that name sounds and how much of a shame no one hardly has it. His original name was Jax but changed it due to the fact that it seemed oddly stupid to me and I wanted a more mature name, I guess.
I created him in my first drawing ever with my mom. We were dropping things off and she told me to stay in the car so I started doodling my first true drawing. I came up with a picture of this little boy and girl smiling and a fairy.

He's changed so much and the most out of all my other characters. He first had green hair with a red and blue eye. Next, I changed his hair to being silver but being dyed blond or other colors. After that, I changed his hair to being black but found it too annoying to fill in with a pencil, so i changed it to a light brown. I think it suits him better since I always made him more secluded than my other characters in the story.

Well, a fact about Nohlan is that his eyes changes based on his mood, but I usually tell people that. I think another unknown fact about him is that he picked out all the stone jewlry for his group based on their personalities. It's a bit silly and I will most likely never make it known, but I think it's neat.

B.) Cailin: I got her name from an Unwritten Law song. I thought it was such a pretty name, so I decided to create a character for it along with Nohlan. Again, same story as above with how i created her in the first place.

She only went through three changes since I first made her. Initially, I made it so that she would wear a school girl's outfit and have long purple hair. Again, I noticed how stupid it was, so I changed her again years later into having long brown hair instead with a purple outfit. Lastly, I updated her into a much cooler character that was attractive rather than a tomboyish one. She wears make up and has a 1950s hair style that I think suits her personality the best. She also has an awesome grenade launcher/Sniping gun in the form of a Japanese guitar. She also wears tiny little glasses in the form of what John Lennon used to wear.

A little known fact about Cailin is that she has a big sweet tooth for chocolates and is only into organic products. She's also vegeterian.

C.) Surge: I got his name by trying to tell myself that I needed to have a quirky name in my series. Surge isn't his real name, of course.. his real name is actually Nathaniel, but there's no fun in that name! I created him mostly because i was telling myself that I needed another member for the group. All the ones I invented always seemed too wrong so I just played around one day in my sketches and made a character I sorta liked. I then named him Surge and made his hair look nuts, just like his nature.

He only went one real change and that was to fix his spikes. I made them much shorter and realistic rather than his original 5 thick spikes. I also added a small bit of facial hair and changed his cut eyebrows to being thicker and more masculine. I wanted to make him the core macho of the group, so I made him to look somewhat buff and lean. I love how he looks now, and he's turning out to be one of my favourite characters.

A little unknown fact about Surge is that I made him gay unofficially for jokes. My friend was amazed as to how I don't have any gay characters in my stories, so I told her I would. The thing is, Surge isn't gay for just anyone, he's in love with Nohlan... and Nohlan doesn't want ANY of it. That and he has a thing for collecting adorable things with him (this is stated rarely in the main story).

D.) Damon: His name went under three different changes in the story as well as his role in the group. He was Miroku, Shizue, and Damien. I created him mainly because I felt that the story of just 2 kids was boring, so I changed it to having a group of 3 people... but somehow, this group remained just with 3 people instead of me adding another female in the story.

I first created him from someone I saw on deviantart, I thought it would be good to steal the character and take it in as my own, but was caught. I slowly changed it to the character it is today. I got Miroku from Inu Yasha, Shizue from Deviantart, and Damien from the bible. Damon came from Damon Albarn from Blur and Gorillaz. He was also just a traveling person in the begining of the story and slowly became Nohlan's twin brother in the story. I also changed the fact that they were identical twins and just made it so that Damon is the older of the two.

A little fact about him is that he loves soup a lot.

E.) Dainton: I had a friend with this name and fell in love with it. I then told him that i was creating a character with his name.

Still underdevelopment so there's not much to say. I want to make him the elder of the group and he makes weapons for the two brothers. He had long white hair and elf ears but found it so tacky, that I decided against it. I then gave him my new haircut and realized that it looks like Ishida from Bleach! >_< I still need to fix his hair but it'll take sometime.

A little fact is that he has a thing for soap operas when they come on. Good times!

quick recap of my weekend, ladies and gents:

i somehow agreed to hit the town with my brother and we went and met his girlfriend at a local bar. i drank two drinks (that sounds a bit weird...) and then we somehow shimmied our way to the hardrock casino. we managed to find a hookah bar and we strode on in towards the back. my brother looked nervous, as well as his girlfriend... but luckily me and stacy (girlfriend's friend) were the only ones who knew how to even smoke hookah. so we ordered humus and a raspberry lemonade hookah and shared more beers all around.

the beer was average i suppose, the taste reminded me nothing short of alka-seltzer and possibly this water concotion i tried at my house.

we then made our way from the hookah to another club were to pianist attempted to be funny as they made remarks on current world news. by now, i was on my third drink and wasn't nearly tipsy to even enjoy the stupidity of their show. :/

amanda somehow managed to sneak me into murphey's law and that's when i realized how the club life must look like. people were dancing, making out, clinging to walls (maybe to stop the world from spinning), grinding against random strangers, couples talking (rather, shouting) into their ears. the band was playing so loud, my ears had a vague muffled sound to it, almost as if the world was on a soft mute from my mind. during this club, i was offered two more drink and was feeling pretty good at this point. i loosened up fully and started dancing to the music.

it was the kind of thing that i would have never thought i would like to do. the music, the people, the lights... i was amazed at how people can easily come here and be deafened by the loud music and still manage to grind their ways into one another. still, with this came with me stumbling and talking to my brother on my way home about the goo goo dolls and possibly how my art was going.

all in all, it was fun.

oh, forgot to add but.. i'm really into middle eastern stuff now. maybe when i get a chance, i'll explore into the culture of hindus and other things. it hit me like a ton of bricks while i was in that hookah bar. the place was so empty, but those who were there were deffinatly indian. my heart melted at this site of one guy that evening. he was tanned with ink black hair, he had a broad nose that was similar to mine and for the first time i can say that he was amazingly beautiful. i never noticed how attractive someone from there can look. now that i think about it, slumdog millionare had a very attractive lead guy.

i need to get ready, i have to leave in two minutes for school

I HATE MATH CLASS. >_< i just cannot wait for my art appreciation class. the teacher is amazing